Musings of Aubrey

Hello beautiful people!! I am a person who does a lot of thinking, and that's where most of my problems come from, overthinking, but sometimes the thinking leads to good things, and my overthinking has brought me to a single conclusion. I want to live my life my way. I want to do the things I want to do and I want to be who I want to be. That's it, its my life and I am going to live it my way. If I want to cut all my hair off I am going to do it, if I want to dye my hair, its going to be dyed. If I want to wear leather pants and a t-shirt, its happening.

Life is way to short to worry about what other people think of you, live your life the way you want to live it. It is your life, go out and live it! I'm not saying use this as an excuse to go out and drink and do drugs and all that. I mean I guess I kind of am. Basically what I am saying is don't be stupid about it. Wait, what was the point of this, I was going somewhere with this, hang on like two seconds.........

Oh yes! I got it! LIVE YOUR LIFE! IT IS YOUR LIFE, DONT WORRY ABOUT WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK! Go out in public and act like a freak! Laugh until you fall over, act as weird as you possibly can! HAVE FUN! Don't worry about what people think of you! That is their opinion, and it doesn't matter! There are plenty of people who love you exactly the way you are! DO NOT CHANGE for someone, if they want to be friends with you or in a relationship with you they will LOVE you exactly the way you are. BE EXACTLY WHO YOU ARE. You are the only person who is stuck with you. Everyone else has the choice to be apart of your life if they want to be, do not change! Not everyone is going to like you, its a fact of life, but they don't matter because for every person who doesn't like you there are 3 other people who LOVE you!

What I am saying here is don't worry about other peoples opinions of you. That is their problem if they don't like you, not yours. Be yourself all of the time, don't hide behind a person you made up because you think people will like you more. There is nothing I regret more than not acting like myself.

I want you to do something with me. I want you to be straight up honest with me, yourself and the people around you. Don't hid behind a front. Ill start here with you guys.

 Hi, my names Aubrey and I am nerd. I like Harry Potter and Hunger Games. I like reading and I LOVE being in band. I play in the pit orchestra and I am excited about that.  I play soccer and I really dislike running. I dislike my body and certain aspects about myself, but I am learning to love myself. I finally had my first kiss at the age of 16, but still haven't had my first boyfriend. I don't have a car and work at a retail store. I am a freak and so are all my friends, and I love them for it. I am moody and a very emotional person. I care way to much about people, especially people close to me. I am Aubrey and I am no where near perfect, but I am me, and that's all I ever want to be.

I'm Back!

Boo! Hey my wonderful readers! I has been a while! I hope you all had a wonderful New Year! I did nothing for New Years and went to bed at 11:00 but it was still good!! So hopefully you guys had a more exciting New Years!
 I haven't posted since November! That's a long time ago!! I have been SUPER busy but I wanted to come back, I've been doing a lot of thinking and want to share my thoughts with you! I hope you're ready for it!!
That's all for this post, I just wanted to give you some warning!! Hopefully I can do a better job at blogging from now on!!
Love you all and thanks for reading!!

Happy Belated Thanksgiving!!!

Happy belated Thanksgiving! I had been meaning to post but I've been busy lately. I worked on Thanksgiving Morning, on Black Friday and earlier today, all around 8 hr shifts, you can say I am a little tired. But anyway I hope everyone had a fun and safe Thanksgiving!! I hope everyone stuffed their faces with the amazing food they had and I hope everyone just had a good Thanksgiving and spent it with the people who matter to you. I think for the rest of this post I am just going to post a few things I am thankful for. If you want leave what you are thankful for in the comments!!

I am thankful for:
My wonderful family
My amazing friends
My co-workers
My teachers
My music
Chocolate
Starbucks
The little bananas in Runts
YouTube
My Blog and my readers
But overall my life.

Have a nice night and let my know what you are all thankful for!!!!

Music Monday #5

D'ello! What is crackalacin my friends?? Its time for another music Monday! I was not really sure what to do for today because the only songs I have actually been listening to are French songs and Rap God by Eminem. But I have finally decided on one....drum roll please!!........

Should of Just Gone to Bed by the Plain White T's. This song has really good instrumentals. You know how some music is just computer laid beats? Well this one actually has music behind it, played by an ACTUAL band! Almost unheard of huh? haha. But overall this song is good and it just sounds really good. The lyrics are relatable to many people so overall it just makes a good song. I suggest you check it out. I am going to put the video in underneath:)

 

 



*I will be posting a few other posts this week so be sure to check them out! Also don't be afraid to talk with me, there is a communication box to your right as you read this and you can leave comments, tell me what you think! Good or bad!! I just wanna talk with you guys. Love ya lots!!*

Do Whats Good for You

Lately I have been having some issues with a few of my "friends". They don't know how I feel because if I try to talk to them about it they refuse to listen. Basically the big thing is they will ignore my unless they need something from me. One piece of advice I can give you right now is be nice to people but don't be too nice, because people will use you, trust me, I know. I am tired of being the person that is expendable, I'll be there when you need me but other than that I don't matter. Its been causing me a lot of problems lately. Its been causing me to feel as if I have to act out to get attention from them. I haven't acted out yet but its crossed my mind. My self-esteem has been dropping because of it, and its already not doing so well because of swimming in gym.

I want to use my experience to help other people. If you ever feel this way, or have, listen closely. They don't mean anything, friends will come and friends will go, its not worth it for you to feel worthless. You are more then someone to be used, you are a person. You are a person with talent and worth. You are a person who should never feel used and worthless. You look those people in the eye and say to them "Screw you!" Its going to be hard, its been hard for me to do, but your going to gain and loose friends and friends that only use you are NOT worth it. In all honesty they are not your friends.

I am going to wish all of you good luck if you are going through what I am right now. Its hard but I want you to do what's good for you. In return I ask you with me good luck with what I have to do as well. I don't want to loose these friends but the only way for me to feel good again is to loose these friends that are bringing me down. They won't understand but that doesn't matter, its time for me to put myself first. Sometimes you just need to put yourself first, and now is that time. Good luck to all going through what I am.

Happy Veterans Day

I just wanted to pop on and say a big thank you to all of the Veterans. Thank you for all of your sacrifices, thank you for doing what you do and have done for our country. Without you, and your sacrifices, we would no be where we are today. Thank you for serving our country. A lot of people in my family have served. It is a great honor to know people who have served and I know it is a great honor for them to have served. Thank you to everyone who had served and are currently serving.

The other day my school held a Veterans Day assembly and we invited Veterans for it and I couldn't help but cry. Seeing the pride on their face, and their emotions was so....amazing. Watching their faces as we gave them a standing ovations just made me break down, is was so heart warming. Playing in the orchestra for them was such an honor.

Thank you Veterans and Soldiers currently serving. In all branches of the Military. Thank you. We are the Land of the free because of the brave.

Music Monday #4

Guys I am sooo sorry I missed last week. I completely forgot! I told you guys this would happen!! But I got a treat for you this week!! Well I love the song a bunch but that's because I am a HUGE fan of this group. Ready??? Drum Roll please............Ones Directions new song Story of My Life. Guys I love One Direction so much. So I think this song is amazing. Story of My Life is kind of a new sound for them but its also their old song. Its honestly soooo good!! I can't even handle it. I can't wait for their album to come out!! I am also going to link a "review" for this song. Its by Shane Dawson, one of my favorite YouTubers. I love One Direction with all of my heart but its pretty funny. So please check both out!!

Story of My Life:

 

 

 

 

 

Shane Dawson's Review:

 

 





 

 

 

 

 

 

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